I am now a Hindu.
I am not Hindu.
I am not an Indian.
My identity has been completely erased from the country.
I was born in India, but I am neither Hindu nor a Hindu person.
I do not belong to any group, religion, or caste.
I do not share the values of the Hindu religion.
I have never been to a Hindu temple.
To the extent that I identify as a Hindu, I do so on my own initiative.
I believe in the sanctity of my own identity, and I have chosen to live in India in order to uphold it.
The fact that I have done so on a purely personal basis and that I am, therefore, in no way affiliated with any group or religion has not been my undoing.
When my son was born, I decided to be a Hindu as I felt the idea of being raised as a child in a Hindu family was extremely appealing.
I felt this had brought me great joy and comfort.
But, as a matter of fact, it was the other way around.
I had been raised in a community where, as I said, the idea that my son would be raised as Hindu was not appealing to me.
The community was predominantly Muslim and this, of course, led to the most profound discrimination.
Now, my son has no reason to believe that I belong to a particular group or a particular religion.
The only thing he knows is that I was raised as an Indian and he will be raised in an Indian family.
As for my identity, it is now totally erased.
This has left me feeling completely disowned, humiliated, and disrespected.
In a country where Hindus are considered to be second-class citizens, I am deeply disturbed.
Even my son cannot understand why I am still being discriminated against.
It is a very difficult situation for him, and his understanding of me is very limited.
If I had to choose between my identity and my son, I would choose my identity.
Hinduism is a religion, but it is not a religion of peace.
It has a very powerful political force and, unfortunately, it has had an adverse effect on the country, the people and the society.
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